TEARS flowed and TIME flew away

I looked myself in the mirror and asked "who was there?", "A clueless girl with a marble like eyes and it was yet another lost sheep among those hundreds." Sighed and drifted my eyes, I was not being able to get back my conscience. It was hard to differentiate if everything was worth it or was vile. A very moment I wished if someone could come and grab me tight, I was losing my sight to where I was then and where I am now.

I blamed myself for years only to know in the end that I was not even a part of it. How someone can just destroy others life without even a sense of guilty; it was all about themselves but it costs me my whole life. All these years that I have lived with those regrets and hurts just blew away like an ash. It was meaningless and I was ignorant about it, never had a clue that one can go to that extend to make everything possible on their side. My decisions were never mine and I was not living the way I wanted but was forced by some manipulating and dirty people. They have played with my mind and then threw me far away from their sight; how pity a stray dog looks, well I was no different to that. Selfish, cunning and heartless describes that person and yet those words are not enough. I was already broken but when I came to know the truth all I had in my mind was..

One can never break whats already Broken! 

If I curse and do you wrong then I will be no different than what you are. All I want to say is hope you finally get what you always wanted, indeed you should succeed because it costed me my life. And now I will let go of all those meaningless regrets and hurts, besides I want to thank you for letting me get off all those burdens. Sigh! When I look back, TEARS flowed and TIME flew away.

Your Love is Beyond Greatness

Millions of people say that you are not true, if you are not true then why billions of people praises you and still believes that you are real. Those scriptures may be thousands of years old and  many people doubt about your existence. But if you are not real then why do I feel your presence where ever I go?
I speak of my experience and what i believe in; this is my testimony for the faith I have.
You were born as an ordinary and simple man but you grew up to be the king of all kings; not in wealth or proved in battle field but the king who saved souls and rescued people from their sins, bondage and misery and above all died for us. You were looked down for helping the poor; you were punished for healing the blind and was crucified for showing people the truth, light and the way to heaven. 

Finally you proved them wrong because you have risen from death and it proved that you are inevitable. You resurrect to set us free; free from our sins, free from loneliness and alienation, free from pain and sufferings, free from hatred and jealousy and from all the evil. You didn't have any reason to die but you died for us. You resisted the torments and blood shed to open our eyes to the pure love you have given us. Everything you did was because you loved us beyond limits and any numbers.
I have felt your love and it is deeper than the seas and oceans. Nothing can be compared to your love, you are the god of grace and mercy. I pray for all the living souls on earth, to be able to feel your love. Only then, they shall know how great is your love for us. 

I Cry For My Tomorrow

If only I had a time machine,
I would never want to live my tomorrow..
Don't want to go to sleep,
And if I sleep, I don't want to open my eyes.. 

My tomorrow will hold the memories of losing you,
My tomorrow will be sad and lonely without you..
Tomorrow,
I just might break down..

I pray to sleep forever,
And never to feel the pain ever again.. 

And for now I cry,
I cry for my tomorrow..

~Nature Speaks the Language of Beauty~ 

Look deep into nature, and then you will understand everything better.  ~Albert Einstein

Adopt the pace of nature:  her secret is patience.  ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

God writes the gospel not in the Bible alone, but on trees and flowers and clouds and stars.  ~Author unknown, commonly attributed to Martin Luther 

- Pictures taken at Eco Camp, Lamperi.

Your Eyes~

I saw your picture,
My heart skipped a beat..
My eyes blinked,
And my thoughts wandered..

It's been a while,

Since I saw that smile..

Lost in a thought so complicated,

Still was starring at your beautiful face..

It was hard to take my eyes off of you,

Knew right then, it always was your eyes..

It was such breath taking,

Whenever you starred at me..

...

You look the same,

Just like on the day we first met..

A thought passed by saying;

     I will wait for that day again,

     The day when we first met..

Hurt that I got..

Should have ignored those feelings,
Those feelings deep in my heart..


And now the hurt weigh even more,
More than the moments in which we lived..


It hurts so bad,
My heart cant take it..


But i don't even know how to let you go,
To let go off those feelings..


Don't know what it will take to forget everything,
To forget those times filled with laughter, love..


what should i do with the promises we made?
Those promises that you swore to me ..


..Hurt is all that I got..

Love for the rain drops..

A place so cold in winter; rains a lot in summer and leaches are quite common. Under the dzongkhag of Chukha there is this place called Tala, where only few hundred people lives. A pleasant summer came with a farewell to dry and cold winter. The houses were built alongside the road, which is literary termed as linear settlement. The houses were built out of bamboos and looked worse than a shack. Within that line of houses, there is an old shack which was totally worn out and a blue and long synthetic plastic was covered from the top of the house with a stones holding that piece of plastic. Dophu and Zangmo have been living there for 10years. They were going through a lot of struggle and lived hand to mouth with Dophu's monthly income. They lived their life sleeping on the floor and with two pairs of clothes to wear. Dophu’s clothes were totally worn out and most of the time, he wore his gray old gho. It was torn, at some part the stitches couldn't even work.

Dophu was a bus driver and was mostly away from his home. Zangmo took care of their old shack and their only child, who was born disabled (deaf and dumb). Life seemed pretty hard for the couple, at times Zangmo cried over their pathetic condition. Zangmo had a hope that her child would look after the poor parents when he grows up. “What could be disheartening than having the only child as a disable?” she thought. The poor couple couldn’t think of having another child as they won’t be able to afford it.

Karma was 6years old; due to his disability he was always inside the house as a caged bird. Dophu and Zangmo loved him without a sense of regret. They gave him almost all they could afford; karma was given a toy truck by his father from his saving. Karma always played around with his only toy car and disturbed his mother with a roaring voice. Karma loved rain; he would always go near the window to see the rain and its drop falling on the glass.

It was 6am in the morning and Dophu was on his way from Phuntsholing to Thimphu. The summer rain once again flooded the road and caused a landslide. Thus, the buses took other way which passes through Pasakha and Tala. It was raining heavily and the drops of the rain where bouncing back and forth on the road.

Zangmo woke up as usual, she complained to herself about the rain. Karma was still sleeping then she took out her big black umbrella and was off to fetch water. She said to herself “ga day bay na nga? Chu di kham losisi yep wong”. She was thinking about water being dirty due to the rainfall, though she passed hurriedly forgetting to latch the door from outside. Zangmo was all drenched as the rain leaked through the torn umbrella. She bent down to fetch water, she hold her worn out umbrella on her left hand and supporting on her knees on the damp ground, with her right hand she was filling the jerkin / bottle. The water was dirty, and then she thought she would get water from the tap which was few minutes away from the river. As she walked through the river side, she nearly slipped into the river and her tattered umbrella was taken by the river. She dirtied her clothes and she was frustrated. After few minutes, she reached near the tap, she waited on a queue.

Back at home, Karma woke up and was looking for his mother; suddenly he saw the door was open. He was delight and went out to play and was drenched all in rain. But his blissful look and his joyful eyes reflected how happy he was to be freed.

Dophu was going through a tough time; the never ending rain was falling on the front glass of

the bus, it disturbed his sight. As the bus passed through his house, he smiled to himself and 

thought about his wife and  his son. It was for few seconds, his eyes wandered but as  he 

focused back to the road that was when Karma got hit by the bus. Dophu was still and didn't

even blink his eyes. A fear ran through his heart, he stopped the bus and rushed outside in the

rain, and saw a child drenched in a blood. Dophu looked the rain washing away the blood and he

fell on his knee and stared at his son.

When Zangmo returned by fetching some water, she saw Dophu holding Karma. They were outside their house and were soaked to the skin from head to toe. Zangmo dropped the jerkin and as the water split out, tears of disgrace drowned from Zangmo’s eyes.